But, as I sat there and looked at this picture, I realized...God knew. God called us to adopt Malachi and Hadassah and He knew, even then, while we simply held a piece of paper with a heart over our children's birth country, that two beautiful children, held in the palm of His hand, were going to be restored as a son and daughter, our son and daughter. He knew the pain and the cost their precious birth families would experience. He knew the challenges we were about to face. He knew the loss our children were going to go through. He was planning restoration while we sat by our twinkling Christmas tree, smiling at the thought of our beautiful Ethiopian babes.
Later that day I heard the song on the radio, Never Once by Matt Redman and it reminded me so much of our adoption journey. I'm so thankful God walked with us, our children, and their birth families. He kept us moving when we felt like giving up, He sent encouragement when our hearts were too weary to ask, He provided strength through our greatest times of weakness, He gave us patience when we just couldn't bare waiting any longer, He gave us vision in the midst of dark days...He lavished us with His grace and presence during this past season of our life. At the time it felt awful and I wanted nothing more than to be DONE with the adoption process and forget it ever happened. Now, looking back, the thing that stands out is Him and the very character of God that was revealed. It's amazing how quickly I've forgotten the feelings of pain in that waiting. I guess it's kind of how women describe forgetting labor. The beauty of it all is that the journey's only just begun. He'll continue to reveal His heart as we ask and seek. He'll continue to break our hearts for the things that break His.
We've gone from a faraway dream, an unattainable calling, a deferred hope, and an outline of Africa with a heart over Ethiopia to this....
God is Faithful
You have to take a few minutes to listen to this song if you've never heard it! Anyone waiting in an adoption process, all I can say is, just cling to God...He'll see you through.